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in the uncertainty when faced with all the questions about my future, both on a personal and professional level, there are few things i am sure about. finding passion in unconventional subjects, such as urban sociology, anthropology, women's studies does not lead myself along with fellow colleagues of mine to cookie cutter jobs. we must become imaginative, creative in our search for how our passion plays out into the real world through attainable (and livable) careers. the financiers, doctors, and engineers of the world don't usually 'get' us. they think we are free spirits with little direction. it is true that perhaps our paths aren't as clear as those going into highly trained professions, but we have bold goals that few have courage to begin to obtain. we may not be living the luxurious life, although with today's economy few do, but we understand what we like to call the bigger picture. upon being asked 'what will you do after you get your masters?' my friend has been responding, 'i plan to save the world' because she is tired of explaining her passion to people who don't understand. i say that i have no idea, but i envision the woman i want to be. i think, and i hope that that is enough.

ahhhh......clarity. (day 1)

as i walked into one of my best friend's studio late last night i saw a magazine cutout that read, "if i ever cease to love" held up by a magnet on her fridge. we interpreted the phrase differently; mine was surprisingly a bit more optimistic than hers. but as i contemplate on it further i find that i am brimming with love for my friend who i only get to see on long weekends every few months. she laughed at my over-sized hot pink suitcase (so not me) and rambled on about how she was going to paris to find a well-dressed man. although we are very different, we have an unexplainable connection. she is my home. and i'm happy to be home for a few weeks, despite that my home is in a city that strips people of their souls. this is the love that never ceases, and we all need to believe that. at times i think that love is far greater and deeper than being in love.

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