i am so indecisive it's sick. i need to make decisions and commit to them. i am always torn, one foot out and one firmly in, an infinite pro/cons list that i never complete, balancing the traditional with the rejectionist in me. the reason for this madness is that i do not know what i want. plain and simple. just take your time everyone says. yet, my mind, my tired thoughts are ready to skip ahead to a time when i can have a bit of consistency. just a bit. not too much because the average person's life-- 9-5's, dinner as the highlight of the evening with oooh perhaps watching a dvd, weekends for couples only dinner parties--will never (ever) be my life. but at the moment, i would love for there to be no more unattainable variables added to the equation. i'm a sociologist, not a mathematician.
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